KoTak_peRak

sekarang bayangkan kenapa saya menyebutkan bahwa sabtu ini saya berubah menjadi putri? dari yang asalnya sailormoon kemudian doraemon dan banyak lainnya, padahal saya cuma sempat bermalam mingguan dengan sang pacar selama 4 jam setengah saja, seperempat dari porsi saturday weekday...dan dia dengan baik hatinya membuat saya menunggu selama sebutlah 2 jam di sebuah mall, sebelum akhirnya kami ketemu dan cuma sempat makan malam abis itu pulang,,,because today my boyfriend gave me another inspiration,,,

so what inspiration???

Inspiration because he told me that in the age of my little brother, his life more pathetic than my littest brother's... hahahaha

and suddenly i realized, that even in my age im just the same, i have ever had better living but it's not a life... sebut saja apapun, mobil? rumah? saya gak pernah merasa ada yang berarti di dalamnya,,,

and now when our life became worst, but strangely, i feel better,,,

baru sadar,, that life is depend on what we are pursue, and pursuing for money didn't make you have a life when you living it..pursuing happiness was better than that, pursuing thankfull life is the best...

i really, wanted have a family and my husband is the man who love me right now, i did not wonder how big our house, did not either wondering about how much car do we have, and especially did not thingking how JUTA's money we have to living our live...

did not wondering that my husband is a millionaire....
i just wondering that he will be still a family man who loves me and my son/daughter, i am wondering that he loves to buy me a magazine and a novel and not a car or another luxurious gadgets or clothes or shoes (sneaker enough for me because he loves to be with me and our children to go jogging every sunday morning), i wonder my husband always in home every weekend, and even if he cannot he will always take me and my children together with, everywhere...i just wondering that my husband will always be with me and my children in dinner time, enough with tempe and tahu and ikan asin and sayur asem and petai and NOT pizza, juice and beef...I am wondering that we had a small home not a big house, enough room for everyone and one working room for me and my husband so we still can tease each other in late night working home task...i am wonder my husband that give me a million hughes and kisses everyday not moneys, i just wonder a husband that will never give up for his family, i just wonder a man that happy to be father....i wonder how he always loving in bed and not looks macho in Buggati...but a looser =p

What? looks naive?????? no, everybody who says that i am naive it means that him/herself didnot belive in his/herself...

I wonder my child not as a spoiled child who do have everything...
not have handphone untill junior high school, ordinary clever child, loves tales, and polite.... that's all

and life would be easy for everyone, when you are all now happy with what you do...

i do, i love my job, i love my life, i love my love life.... i am not yet satisfied but enough and thankful...

at least i know what plan i will go trough 3 and 4 years to go (FUCK with 2012)

i really love everything in my life..



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happy 2nd anniversary for me and rullan,,,(he gave me roses in a dinner at 'es teler 77' restaurant makes me feel proud because of every girl looks very 'WANTED' it so muchhh!!)

=) =) =)

i love you a, even if sometimes it looks like i don't....you know laaah,,hehe